Chapter 9
My unusual breakfast earlier might have started well, but it ended up badly.
It took three Betas to drag Alpha Killian away before my father could crush his skull. He even begged he wanted to see me again.
I can see the regret in his eyes, the longing, the pain.
But if he really has plans to change for the better, why do it now when he can do it years ago?
I don’t know if these are all just his scheme, his theatrics, to manipulate me to come back to him again. But-
“Never again,” I whispered before the family picture of me, Deanna, and Killian. I placed it down on the table gently. “Never again. Never again will I be a slave to my emotions. Never again will I let myself be a victim of love towards Killian.
“Never again what?” A familiar deep voice sounded beyond my balcony. It surrounded my room like some looming shadows of my past.
I opened the curtains wider and there, Alpha Killian was crouched on the balcony floor. Dried blood crusted his lips and hair, filth stained his face.
“You bastard-” I almost shrieked but then I lowered my voice. “What the fuck are you doing here?
“Is that what you really think of me Sellyn? A bastard?” his voice was low and vicious as he asked, something like hurt shone in his
eyes.
“Maybe. But considering what you’ve done to us, I think it’s the least of the insults I can throw at you. Do you think you‘ re the only one who knows how to utter hurtful words that can poison minds and weaken souls, Killian?” I sneered, Go away.”
Moonlight gilded his face in silver. For once, I’ve thought him handsome and perfect. Now in this beaten state, he looked one nush
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closer to his grave. Perhaps he’ll be following Deanna too soon than I expected, but I don’t care. All I care about is for him to be gone
before my eyes and out of the Alpha King’s pack.
“Please, Killian. For the betterment of both of us–for us to
heal…please, leave. Your face, your presence, just hurts me more. It just opened the gaping wound of my heart wider when I had spent so hard for it to slowly close.”
And true as my thoughts, that crack widened again. One by one, tears fell from my eyes like rain.
All my world circled him for those years that my heart yearned for him.
After we were arranged to be married, after our mating bond snapped, I devoted my life and heart to him and him only. I became his most loyal Luna. In our relationship, it was always me who give and give and gave. It was he who simply just took and take and take. But I was never worried about that. I know I was a martyr. I have endured all the pain this unconditional and unrequited love brings.
Seeing his smile every time the sun rises is enough for me not to ask in return.
“I know I’ve wronged you for many years. Our Deanna is gone, and…I don’t want to lose you too, Sellyn. Please give me a chance. I don‘ t care if your father will beat me up again. Don’t you want to start a new life with me? I have cut all ties with Nichole now. We can have another child to rebuild our family. We can be complete again. I will take care of you this time. I promise.”
Indeed, Killian has never looked at me this way before. The tears lining his eyes in silver, his smile so sweet and beckoning.
Everything.
But then…that pain slashed at me again. The pain of what he’s done for years still lingered.
Even after we got married and had our mating ceremony, he
immediately went away even when we were still on our honeymoon.
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No doubt he paid Nichole a visit.
“If you really have the will to start again, you should have done it years ago. I didn’t try to hide the disinterest in my tone.
I might have squeaked and yelped and cried happy tears hearing this from Killian if only Deanna hadn‘ t died.
“You didn’t even bother tracking that Rogue who escaped and the reason why our daughter died.”
“He escaped?!” the Alpha‘ s mouth gaped. “He’s still out there?”
I choked, “You didn’t even know our daughter‘ s murderer escaped.” I clicked my tongue in disappointment as I crossed my arms and turned away from him.
“I’m sorry, Sellyn–I…Did you know I laid Deanna’s grave with daisies and flowers every day? I even bought her a new wolf stuff toy just this morning and placed it beside her urn.”
My face went tight. “Grave? Your bitch burned her body! All that was left of Deanna was her ashes and that stupid urn!” I bellowed, and ducked to the ground, my palms covering my face as I cried loudly. I don‘ t care if any of the pack heard me. I don‘ t care if my father hears me and beats Killian again.
I heard him kneel down beside me and place a hand on my shoulder. “Go away!” I hissed at him, baring my teeth. My sight was slightly blurry now thanks to the tears filling the threshold of my eyes. “I don’t want to see you again, Killian, I don‘ t care what you do with your life. I don’t care if my father dissolves the Silver River Pack. I don’t care if you become Rogue yourself–just, just go away!” Killian didn’t move. He didn’t even blink. “Sellyn, I know you’ve always loved me. You won’t really leave me just like this.”
“Oh?” I tilted my head. “I‘ m already doing it, Alpha.” The vision of starting fresh with him would have enticed me as someone who loved him for decades. But now… “That love is gone, Killian,” I expelled a cold breath. “It died with Deanna.”
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My little moon’s death shattered my heart completely. And now seeing her father, I jerked my chin at him. “Your face just makes me sick. Every second I stare and look at you, I think I’m going to vomit.” I pivoted, only to turn at him ever so slightly. “Deanna has just died, Killian, and now you’re thinking about having another child with me?” I let my
wolf’s growl ripple out of me. “Just say that you want to fuck me, that’s why.” I let disgust curl at the tip of my finger when I pointed at him and at the balcony door. “Go.”
“That’s not what I meant, Sellyn. I just don’t want to lose you too. I don’t want to lose the two most important women of my life all at once.” His voice was anxious as he reached for my hand. I pulled it away from his reach.
“Me and Nichole or me and Deanna?” I asked, a challenging grin already plastered on my face. I shook my head at him. “From the moment you left us behind on her birthday party for some urgent pack matters and allowed us to fend off that Rogues alone while you sat there while Nichole fucked you, we were over.”
Her
put his hands on his waist and was about to argue more when there were three sharp knocks on my door. A voice from the other side called out to me, “Sellyn. The Alpha King wants to let you know that we have captured the escaped Rogue who killed your daughter.”
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